Where have I been??

So, it's apparently been a month and a half since I've last posted. Where am I, you ask? I'm busy counting days:
- 14 days --> Last presentation ever for my MBA!
- 17 days --> I become an official Junior League of Plano member!
- 20 days --> Day to meet my goal weight...scary!
- 46 days --> The day I get married!

As per usual, I start blogging again the minute I start dieting again. Not like writing has really helped me in the past but I am hoping for a different result all the same. Can anyone remind me what the definition of insane is again?

So, as I mentioned in my last post, I started a new job about 7 weeks ago. I love it here! The team I work with reminds me of my old team from my first job and the work is steady and busy and fun. One thing that's going to help me with this diet is the cafeteria. I know, sounds lame and like crappy, fattening food but they have some good health options. And the price can't be beat. Yesterday, I had a salad for lunch. Those who know me know that I despise salad. But, they have a salad bar where you can customize whatever you want and then they weigh it. My huge salad that I couldn't finish came in at a whopping $3.47. And it was good, too!

Today, I mixed the American side with the Korean side and made my own meal. From the American side, I got steamed broccoli, peas and carrots. From the Korean side, I got a fillet of tilapia with chili sauce. It was all phenomenal and I am beyond stuffed. Hopefully tonight I can stick to my dieting with a decent meal despite having a group meeting to work on our paper right after work. We'll see.

But, I have drive this time. I started looking through old pictures from 4 years ago...when I was super skinny. When I first met Jonathan. When size zero was huge on me. I had willpower back then and I would literally eat until I was just full enough. Today's lunch, while healthy, proved that I am lacking that willpower still. So, I have to make it up with dinner. Which is fine, that should be my lightest and lowest calorie meal anyway. I guess we shall see what the scales say tomorrow!

Anyway, just to embarrass myself, here's the facts. I was 136lbs. yesterday and 134.8lbs. today. If I can keep that up, I'll meet my 20lbs. in 20 days goal. It's a far-fetched goal that many will say is super unhealthy but I have to remind myself that I will be so happy and proud of myself if I can come near that. And why 20 days? Because all the parts of my dress have been made and are waiting on me to do a fitting before they can be sewen together. Then after they are sewen together, I'd like to do one more fitting. Plus, the super short and tight party dress I designed for after the wedding that will NOT hide a single roll? Oh yeah. That. And once I do the fitting in 20 days, I will still have 26 days until the wedding...which will be the time I lose whatever is remaining on my 20 pound goal.

And before you ask...no, I haven't been running lately. I was injured and will be starting again this week. Plus, I'll start my running classes again on August 17th. But, I have to take it slow and basically start from scratch again. Boo!